Sometimes we plan change, sometimes it's gradual, or sometimes it's sudden. Many times it can be completely out of our control. As human beings, our lives are a series of changes, of growing and adapting either by choice or by circumstance. Sometimes change seems scary and sometimes it seems welcome. At times it can feel like the worst thing to ever happen to you, but at the same time the very best blessing.
This is the complex situation I am facing right now with a very major, recent change that was out of my control. A few days ago I found out that the meal service platform that I use to have customers order meals to go from me- Josephine.com will be shutting down on March 30th. At first it was shocking and upsetting. It was a very emotional time for me and for all of the cooks on the platform. I know that the folks at Josephine did all that they could to keep things running, but as with all startups and something that really is so unique and out of the norm for most people, it was an uphill battle. I commend them for working so tirelessly for all of us and for really giving it a go.
After the first couple of days of initial shock, and even during that time I went back and forth between feeling utterly devastated and intrigued about the new possibilities and new things I could do out in the community. The morning after I found out about the shut-down I had to sit there and cry for a while. It is important to me to let my emotions flow so that I am able to move on from difficult news. After that, I began to communicate with lots of people about the news and began to get some ideas from them. This started me thinking about the possibilities out there. Even though I am excited- some mornings I wake up elated that there will be new things to do and others I am terrified of starting over again. I think that all of this is normal and it is the process of letting go and surrendering to what is and what may be.
In the end I truly believe that the universe is "kicking me out" of my home business to really get into the community, learn from others in coffee and food businesses and move closer to my own cafe. This is the path that I come back to again and again and it is what I have always wanted. The steps in between are for me to learn and grow and explore along the journey to "a place of my own."
As opportunities and possibilities open up I am thrilled and a bit scared still all at the same time. But in my deepest heart, I know that this phase will help me grow, change and keep on walking on my journey.
I'd love to hear from you about changes you've had that have been "out of the blue" and what you have learned from them.